After the Party: A Chemsex Recovery Guide

This is not a straight-line redemption story. 

After the Party is a field report from inside chemsex dependency. It is a practical guide to climbing out and moving away from sexualized meth use. 

Told in short chapters that move from story to meaning to tools, it names the mechanics that keep you stuck: the “pushy salesperson” voice that sells you a relapse, the way shame turns into isolation, and the kind of chaotic thinking that feels like freedom until the cost reveals itself. 

Each chapter ends with a toolkit: simple protocols you can copy and use today. Friction you can build. Boundaries you can set. Witnesses you can add. Dignity you can practice. 

If you're still in it, here's the only promise I'm comfortable making: 

Progress comes from adding what helps, 

and being kind to yourself through the process.